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Monday Oct 04, 2021
Knowing God as Your Father
Monday Oct 04, 2021
Monday Oct 04, 2021
0 (0s): Oh, dear Lord. We take this for granted so often that yet, Lord, this is something you call us to do as a, as, as your body of Christ to gather together, to worship you God, to lift you up and then to hear from you and your word Lord. So as we prepare for the time of the word, I pray that you just through these worship songs, just soften the soil of our hearts, that we might receive your, your word as seeds. And it may grow in, in our lives Lord. So Lord, may you be glorified lifted up in this time of worship in Jesus name, we pray. Amen. Please stand with us. 2 (9m 4s): Ship you father. We thank you that we are your children and that we get to worship you this morning church. This morning, we're going to sing a new song and that chorus says, praise the father, praise the sun, praise the spirit three in one God of glory, majesty praise forever to the king of Kings. So this morning as we sing this new song encourages us to worship and praise the father. We love you. Jesus. We thank you that we are here and you're here to worship you. 3 (14m 1s): Got it. Pray for me. Pray for just a blessing upon our time together. Thank you for the time that we've had already fellowshipping. God's singing now praying as we hear the message today, Lord, we just pray God that it would just resonate with us. God, that it would set us free in Jesus name, God that she worked miraculously and supernaturally in our hearts and minds. Lord God, that she'd do surprisingly good things for us and in us and through us. Lord God. So Jesus father spirit come thank you for your presence here. We invite you not just here to our corporate gathering, but individually, Lord God, we just invite you into our hearts and minds. 3 (14m 46s): Lord God that you might speak to us. So be glorified God in the sanctuary, the loft, the patio, as people tune in online, we just pray blessing or God that the grace of God would just cover us all. We pray these things, Jesus in your name, amen. Amen. Turn and say hello to somebody. Meet somebody that you've never met before and we'll get back to it. 3 (16m 6s): Welcome. Welcome, welcome. So I just got back from Tulsa. Oklahoma was there for a few days influencers, which is a discipleship ministry that we're a part of at harvest church has a ministry for men and for women discipleship ministry. That we're a part of and have been a part of for a number of years. Now, a lot of our men and a lot of our women are going through this journey, put out buys it's curriculum, put out by Rocky Fleming. Who's the founder of influencers ministry. So they just had their 20 year summit, their 20 year anniversary. And so I was invited to go out with a group of guys from our church and I wasn't planning to go because I had other things on my schedule. 3 (16m 46s): And then my schedule changed. And then the Sunday before last I was invited and they said, Hey, we still have room. If you've got your, if your schedule is clear. And I said, well, this is the deal. My schedule is clear. If I can find a plane flight out last minute, then you know, I'll consider going. So talked to my wife and said, Hey, this is the deal. I, I want to go to this. I don't know if I'll get to be able to get a ticket, but she said, well, if we get a ticket, you go, if not, then you'll know. So we line and found a ticket. And so I went off to Tulsa with, like I said, there were about 126 guys gathered at this old salvation army camp outside of Tulsa. 3 (17m 28s): And that was just this delightful time. The opening night, Thursday nights, the founder, Rocky Fleming. So it was Thursday night, Friday, Saturday, come home Sunday. So I got home last Sunday at about six o'clock in the night's hand. And so Rocky Fleming opens things up after we have some worship and some prayer and he begins to talk about an orphan spirits. And I had heard of this concept over the course of time, over the course of my years in ministry. And just as a Christian and part of the journey curriculum is that you read a book called an orphan no more. 3 (18m 9s): And so I read that book probably twice and, and administered to me and resonated with me. And then, so, you know, moving on and Rocky's talking about an orphan spirit get on Thursday night. And so it really resonated with me. And so today I'm just going to kind of share my story in revelation 1211. It says they overcame him the accuser by the blood of the lamb and the word of their testimony. I think there's power in obviously there's power in the blood of the lamb and there's obviously power in the word of our testimony. And so I'm going to just give word of testimony today. I'm just kind of sharing what the Lord did with me over these three days in Tulsa, Oklahoma. 3 (18m 57s): And I, I think it's, I think, I think the Lord's going to use it to minister, to our church and to the listener, wherever they may be. The accusers Satan, the enemy of our souls is always lying to us. He's accusing us. That's what one of his names is. He's the accuser of the brethren accuser of the saints. And so he's always trying to convince us of things that are not true. And it's so subtle that we don't even realize that we're being duped or tricked or that we're believing lies that the enemy has put before us. 3 (19m 40s): There lies depending on our circumstances in life that are pretty easy to believe. They're easy for us to buy. In fact, it's really difficult. It takes a great measure of faith for us to believe the truth that God speaks over us and speaks to us and speaks about us in the scripture. When we hear about the love of the father for us, sometimes it's hard for us to internalize that because we don't feel very lovely or we feel like we've done something to cause him not to love us. When we hear about the grace of God, we think, well, the grace of God is for everybody else, but nobody really knows how deep and dark my secrets are. 3 (20m 25s): And so that grace cannot be for me. When we talk about the mercy of God, we think it's mercy for others, or we think it's mercy for part of our lives, but not all of our lives. And so when we read through the scripture and we see God ministering through the old and the new Testament, we see his kindness, his love his grace and his mercy. And we see all of the, his provision. We see all of these things and yet the enemy will lie to us and tell us that in this circumstance or in this season of life, those things aren't true. 3 (21m 6s): And so we carry all kinds of fear, all kinds of anxiety, all kinds of doubt, all kinds of worry. We don't believe because we bought into the lies of the enemy. So I didn't realize that I was buying into some of these lies of the enemy, but as Rocky shared, kind of his little talk about the orphan spirit, I just felt like the holy spirit was telling me that this is who I am. And so I wrote down a few things and I'll just kind of unpack my weekend with you my Thursday, Friday, and my Saturday and my Sunday with you. 3 (21m 47s): I wrote, I have an orphan spirits. I have a root of bitterness because of unforgiveness. I need to forgive my dad. Now. I had thought that I had forgiven my dad, but when he died last month, it brought up all of this stuff. All of this baggage that I thought I had already dealt with, I thought that I had forgiven him for everything. I spent the last few years, calling him every week, visiting him number of a number of times, building that relationship, speaking life and truth into him. But when he passed away, like all of this junk, just surfaced and didn't realize it. 3 (22m 29s): But I was beginning to deal with anger again, regarding him, disappointment, frustration, all kinds of things. And what I didn't realize is that I was viewing my heavenly father, the way that I was viewing my earthly father. And we've all heard this stuff before, but this is what was going on with me. So I found it really easy to relate to the sun, to the spirits, but really had a hard time connecting to and relating to the father. And so when we sing songs like we were singing this morning about praise to the father, the son, and the spirit. 3 (23m 10s): It would be difficult for me to connect to that statement about the father. Really easy to connect to the son, my savior and the spirit, the one who guides directs corrects abides in me. So this is what I wrote. My orphan spirit is familiar. My orphan spirit is comfortable. My orphan spirit is cancer. I'm not sure I want intimacy with the father. I'm not sure I know how to relate to father. I'm not sure I know how to know the father. 3 (23m 50s): My orphan spirit is my friend. My orphan spirit is my companion. My orphan spirit is my safe place. I'm not sure I can trust the father. I'm not sure I can believe the father. I'm not sure I can love the father. So these were my brutally honest opinions about the father based on the pain, in my own experience with my earthly father. So as part of the weekend on Friday, so we got there Thursday. I had an session Thursday night, and then Friday, we were given two and a half hours to go out and just spend time with the Lord. 3 (24m 32s): And so in that two and a half hours, and some say about you would have hours long time, it goes quick. So the instruction was, listen to the Lord and write a letter to the father and then write a letter from the father to you. What do you think the father would speak to you? And so I had to listen to what I thought the father might speak to me and then write that down. And then I had to write a letter to the father as well. I'm trying to think which one should I write first? Let me read my letter to a father here. 3 (25m 12s): My letter to the father, father, if I'm honest, just using that word. Father sticks in my throat. I grimace and cringe at the thoughts. I relate better to the son and the spirit. I know you are one with the son and the spirit. I know that you are the same. I know there is one God, I'd rather you stay the silent partner. It would be easier to go along as I have. But I, I, I know that that is not true. I know you desire more. And so do I I've been missing out and I don't want that for my life. 3 (25m 57s): I don't understand the path forward, but I need it. It's strange to think that I've this big hole in my connection with you. I've been at this for decades. I, I lead and I don't understand. This is perplexing. You are beyond full comprehension. My understanding barely scratches. The surface teach me, show me, disciple me. Give me childlike faith, humility. To start again. Gratitude for the opportunity. 3 (26m 37s): Keep me from slipping into old patterns of thinking and lead me down the right path. Help me to see with fresh eyes and a tender hearts. I want to be free. I want to love, I want to feel your love. I want all of you yours in process, Steve, your son. So that was my letter to the father. This is what I felt like the father wrote to me. So this is the father's letter to me, my son. I am not like your earthly father. 3 (27m 19s): I am not abusive. I am not absent. I am not aloof. I am always present. I am always perfect. I'm always compassionate. I pursue you when you don't want to be pursued. I love you when you don't want to be loved. I forgive you when you don't deserve it. There is no catch. I don't love you because you work hard. I love you because of who you are. Mine. Forget all that you thought you knew about me. 3 (28m 2s): Remember all the times I have been faithful, choose truth. And let me heal your heart. Surrender to me. Trust me. Believe me. I am your eternal ABA. I am eternally yours. You are eternally mine. You love your kids better than you were loved. I am inconceivably better at fathering than you. My love for you is immeasurable. There is no end to it. Allow your heart to be healed. 3 (28m 45s): Stop trying to figure it out. Come to me with new expectations. Stop looking at yourself. Start seeing me and settle in. I have peace for you. You are forgiven no matter where you are. I am there. Your works good or bad. Don't affect my love for you. Your accomplishments or lack thereof. Don't change my mind about you. Your shortcomings. Can't alter my commitment to you. You don't disappoint me. 3 (29m 27s): You don't need to impress me. You don't take care of me. I take care of you. I sustain you. I love you unconditionally without withholding abundantly. So, so that was the truth. The father spoke to me. So during this three-day weekend, we had breakout sessions with groups of men as was an all men's group, all men's summits. And so I was in group nine with about eight or 10 other guys. And I shared because that was the intention of the group. 3 (30m 7s): So the reason for the gatherings is that we might share what the Lord spoke to us. And so I shared this information with this group. And one of the intercessors who is in the group, each group was assigned a facilitator and an intercessor and the intercessor and our group. I pulled me aside one time after dinner, he said, Hey, I'd like to share my story with you about my journey with my father, about my life with my father. And he shared a very dysfunctional, abusive experience that he had with his father and the fact that he had to ultimately forgive his father. And so after hearing his story, I felt like Laura was telling me, you need to forgive your father. 3 (30m 47s): So I wrote down a number of things that I choose. I choose to forgive my dad for. And again, I, I felt like I had done all of this before, but when he passed forgiveness, it's our lives are like layers of an onion. You know, it's like they, things peel back and things are exposed and you got to deal with them all for a fresh show. This is what I wrote about my dad. I said, I forgive my dad. I forgive his neglect. I forgive his selfishness. 3 (31m 29s): I forgive his anger. I forgive his expectations. I forgive his laziness. I forgive his cluelessness. I forgive his lack of love. I forgive his favoritism. I forgive his disfunction. I forgive his wasted life. I forgive him. And when I wrote all of that out, I didn't feel so much as a load lifted, but I felt like my soul had been scrubbed. 3 (32m 14s): Like God had taken the best of cleaner and just cleaned out my soul, you know, and just wash me a fresh, all of that. Ugliness, all of that darkness, all of that unforgiveness that I thought I had dealt with, but was revealed to me again, was just washed away. It was really just this incredible experience. And even as I read that list, things that I forgiven my father for, I realized there is no hint of anger. There's no hint of any kind of disdain. There's no hint of lingering feelings regarding all of this. 3 (32m 57s): I feel like if anything, the Lord has given me compassion for my father to share his story a bit. He was raised by a mom and a dad who were exceptionally dysfunctional himself. His dad was an alcoholic and was aloof and distant from him. His whole life, his mom, his mother, my grandmother never met her, was institutionalized when she was a young woman in her twenties or thirties, she was institutionalized because she went crazy and spent the rest of her life institutionalized in an insane asylum. 3 (33m 44s): So to say the very least, my dad grew up with a deep roots of dysfunction in his own life. And then he met my mom and as very, very young people, teenagers, they ended up having a family of their own. They were both completely unprepared for parenting my dad, especially, and after just a couple of years, they divorced. And then for the most of my growing up life, I never saw my dad again and talked to him a couple of times, but he was completely distant, unavailable, getting support didn't was just wasn't there. 3 (34m 34s): And so he was acting out of all of his pain and, and trying his very best. But without the spirit of the living God in his life without having known Jesus, his life was just perpetuating the mess that he had lived. So by God's grace, because he's good now because I'm good. I come to faith in Jesus Christ when I'm in high school or junior high school, and I try to start following Jesus. And then out of the course of that experience, God begins to work in my own life. 3 (35m 21s): And I'm by God's grace able to change the tide to redirect our family. That church trajectory that I should have been on was changed because of the grace of the Lord, Jesus Christ, and I've was able to raise my family, raise my kids, stay married to my wife and serve the Lord. And so God has been Uber gracious, but I'm always surprised at what still needs to be done in our lives. After walking with Jesus for the last 40 years and being married for the last 31 years and raising four kids and being in full-time vocational ministry for the last 20 plus years, I'm never surprised. 3 (36m 14s): I'm always surprised. I should say, I'm always surprised at what God still needs to do in our lives as we move forward and get older. So I am sharing this story because I feel like it's the enemy's first priority to lie to us, to deceive us, to get us believing things that are not true about God. And so when we read the scripture or when we hear sermons, or when we hear testimony about the goodness of God and about the faithfulness of God and about the provision of God, we don't believe it's for us, but I just want to tell you, it is for you. 3 (36m 56s): It is for all of us. It's very much for all of us. Thank you for that. And so what I want to do is give us a chance today to just deal with some of those things that have been maybe hindering our relationship with God, hindering our ability to trust God, hindering our ability to believe God and hindering our ability to fully follow God. And so publicly or privately, you are invited to do some soul searching. 3 (37m 38s): I'd like to invite the worship team back up. I don't know if they're even around right now, but if you guys are hearing me, it's way early, but come on back and, and we're going to spend some time just praying and doing some business with the Lord. And so as the team comes back up, if you guys could just play some, play some music and just kind of be kind of create some, some music in the background, that'd be great. So I'm just going to pray and we'll let the Lord be Lord, I feel like it's been kind of like this revolutionary life-changing thought that God can be trusted and that crazy. 3 (38m 27s): It's interesting because splitting hairs, I know Jesus can be trusted. And I know the holy spirit is with me and fills me and convince me of standing and of righteousness and is always there. I know Jesus is a friend that sticks closer than a brother. I know that he's my savior, but I've always been disconnected to the heavenly father and I'm not anymore. And I'm grateful for that. And so I want, and God wants for you that same thing he wants, where, whatever disconnect, whatever lack of trust or hope or faith that you're dealing with, God wants to deal with that by revealing himself to you in profound ways. 3 (39m 10s): And so let's go and stand up and we'll just do some business with the Lord. We are here to take some time. We're here to pray And we ask Lord, we pray that you would show us what's lacking. What's missing. What's causing us to be faithless and not believe what's causing us to not trust you. 3 (39m 52s): Lord, what's causing us to walk in fear. What's causing us to be distant. Keep you at a distance Lord. What's causing that Lauren 1 (40m 35s):
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